9.5 Weeks That Changed My Life

Ten years ago today (01.28.2009-01.28.2019), we stepped into the doctors office filled with immense sorrow and great hope for the future.

Exactly a week before that visit, my sweet husband’s mother entered into Heaven’s gate. She was only 67 years old.

I remember that day well. I was pregnant, 9 weeks and caring for our two little ones while my husband was at the hospital with his siblings. The call came, it was 8:35 pm “I was reading in Psalms about entering heaven and Mom entered” my husband spoke quietly.

We lost greatly that day and in the tomorrow’s that followed, but heaven gained richness filled in a woman called Marguerite Ann.

That was Tuesday, January 20, 2009.

A day and a half later, I noticed some spotting. As the next days continued our concerns grew. We made the phone call. Being 7 hours away, Mom’s viewing and funeral that Friday and Saturday, we stayed. In silence between ourselves and God, we did a lot of praying, watching, resting, and giving it to the Lord in the midst of loss, dealing with extended family, and grief.

As we sat in that office (01.28.2009) we still clung to life. By this time, the spotting was lessening. Hoping against odds we never expected to hear the next words…

“There is no baby.”

“Wait. What?
What did you just say?
How can that possibly be?”

That is impossible!

  • I had felt this little one for weeks.
  • I had questioned if I was further along then we thought because of all the movements I had felt.
  • This was impossible.
  • There IS a baby!

Again, those words pierced through my soul…

“There is no baby.”

  • “Maybe you already miscarriaged, or maybe you will in the next day or two.” The words were so cold. So removed. So lifeless.

We walked out of that office with a scheduled appointment in two days.

Numb.
Shocked.
Grieving.
Filled with questions.

What took place in the following days, the Lord kept us in the palm of His protective hand.

The next day included an ER trip which we were told, “I see a sack.” Hope was restored which created more questions.

Later that evening, I did not feel well. I thought maybe a shower would help. In that process, severe pain struck my body like a torpedo exploding into a battle ship. The hit was so powerful that it paralyzed me. The struggle to breathe was intensive and my body turned into a board.

We called for a sitter.

By the time we left the house for the ER, my body had calm down enough that I was able to walk out of the house. When I took that first step down off the porch my body released itself from it’s grip and I was covered in blood, and my breathing became much easier. Later we found out why this happened.

The trip to the ER we spent in prayer giving our little one to the Lord and our lives into His hands. Praying for a miracle. Praying for strength to accept His will. Praying what words could not express or speak, but Jesus Christ was our advocate and we knew it.

We saw a cold, lifeless, removed doctor turn into a compassionate, caring, patient man because of Jesus Christ. They took every concern or every care we had for our baby, for my life, and doubled, tripled checked on our behalf. For this we are incredibly thankful for.

  • Through a exploratory surgery (01.29.2009), it was discovered that I had an ectopic pregnancy. My right fallopian tube ruptured sending blood all throughout the inside of my body causing the severe paralyzing pain and inability to breathe. We take comfort that by this time, our little one was already safe in the arms of Jesus.
  • Our little one spent almost 10 earthly weeks with us. Some find it hard to believe, we don’t question God’s time.
  • We thank the Lord for every week we had with baby Woodruff #3. God has given me the blessings of feeling, not sight, with this little one. For weeks, our little one was alive, alert, and very active in my right fallopian tube; this gift was from the Lord, a treasure I cherish.

Today, and for the past ten years now, our little one walks on streets of gold because of Jesus Christ! The assurance of eternal life through Jesus Christ is a priceless, gracious, and merciful gift from our Lord. The hope we have in Him, that one glories day we shall see Christ, our child, Mom, and others –heaven is sweeter!

God is the author of life.

We were told that if we didn’t conceive within the next year are chances for future children would drop to 12%.

A year and eight months later, we were with child with baby #4. This didn’t come without fears or learning to trust God with this child. Her name means, “God has answered” because her two older sisters prayed every night for “a baby in Mama’s belly” for a year and eight months…and GOD ANSWERED!!

  • God hears.
  • God answers…in His time.
  • God hears the broken hearted.
  • God comforts & heals the grieving soul.
  • God never forsakes His own.

In Christ I am SHE {Saved. Hopeful. Empowered.}

The Blessedness of the Fear of the Lord

Psalm 128

Blessed is every one that feareth the Lord; that walketh in His ways. For thou shalt eat the labour of thine hands: happy shalt thou be, and it shall be well with thee. Thy wife shall be as a fruitful vine by the sides of thine house: thy children like olive plants round about thy table. Behold, that thus shall the man be blessed that feareth the Lord. The Lord shall bless thee out of Zion: and thou shalt see the good of Jerusalem all the days of thy life. Yea, thou shalt see thy children’s children, and peace upon Israel.


The Word of God is so precious. While reading this Psalm in family devotions several things pricked my heart. I am no theologian, but I am so thankful how the Lord has used Psalm 128 on this heart of mine.

  1. The fear of the Lord is not fearful. My fear is man-made….made from within my own heart due to my conscious choice to walk in disobedience and unpure, tainted worship towards God. This may sound strong, critical, or even harsh, but when I get real with myself, this is the root of my fear. When a person chooses to walk in surrendered obedience, worship of God, and walks in His ways and lives out His Word accordingly—blessed, happy, sheltered by God’s grace is that person who fears the Lord.
  2. If you are married, husband’s listen up (those who live the Word) you are blessed BUT NOT ONLY YOU, BUT YOUR WIFE as well. Now ladies, I don’t know about you, but this gives me goosebumps. How precious it is to obey the Word…and obey the Word of God together as ONE –as a team! I love this!
  3. Children–when I read verse three I can see little ones around the table chattering, giggling and snacking in lace and pearls. When our little ones were younger we called them OT1, OT2 OT3 = Olive Tree 1, Olive Tree 2, Olive Tree 3 (it was our code until they figured it out…😉). Side note: What do you do when you want “Olive Trees” running around in your home but it doesn’t seem to happen, or it isn’t going to happen? I could write a whole blog or more on this subject (because it is dear to my heart), but if I could write one statement to your struggling or hurting heart, it would be this. “God loves you. Child or not. I know the struggle for real, because we have been told “you can’t have any”…then, “it will be next to impossible”…but, we did. Had OT1 & OT2, then lost one through a tubal pregnancy that ended up rupturing, and the process started all over again. This time it was OT1 & OT2 nighty prayer for “a baby in Mama’s belly” that took almost two years, but our “God has answered” (OT3…that is what her name means) was spotted. Praise God indeed, but fear abounded in new levels. (That is another story.) All this to say, you and your honey are one…you are a family. It is dangerous ground to allow our God-given desire become “mine” –an all-consuming-selfish desire. This will ruin your oneness with your spouse and God, who is the author of life. I don’t have the answer to why some of us “can never” or why some of us “loss and grieve beyond words” or why some of us are “overflowing“. But this I do know: God love us (just look at the Cross) and whatever state we are in, we are to be content? Ouch, I know! Yes, easier said than done, but aren’t all things possible with to those who love God? Love you sisters and brothers. The struggle is real, but God is too! My prayers are with you.
  4. Okay, my “side note” was a long note. 😘
  5. Let’s just read verse four to six: “Behold, that thus shall the man be blessed that feareth the Lord. The Lord shall bless thee out of Zion: and thou shalt see the good of Jerusalem all the days of thy life. Yea, thou shalt see thy children’s children, and peace upon Israel.What is done today affects tomorrow and literally our generations to come. We can do nothing without Christ in us–well, things of eternal value! As Paul exhorted Timothy, stick to the Word! Be in it daily! Feast on it, mediate on it, allow it transform you. Allow Christ be your life! Christ gave His life for us on Calvary (if you do not know Christ personally. I encourage you to click on this link given; it will explain much more: https://inchristiamshe.com/eternity/).

    How can we not give Christ are all?
    We claim this life as our own, but is it really?

In Christ I am SHE {Saved. Hopeful. Empowered.}

What do Your Children See?

In Christ I am SHE {Saved. Hopeful. Empowered.}

Passing the Baton


Now these are the commandments, the statutes, and the judgments, which the Lord your God commanded to teach you, that ye might do them in the land whither ye go to possess it:

That thou mightest fear the Lord thy God, to keep all his statutes and his commandments, which I command thee, thou, and thy son, and thy son’s son, all the days of thy life; and that thy days may be prolonged.

Hear therefore, O Israel, and observe to do it; that it may be well with thee, and that ye may increase mightily, as the Lord God of thy fathers hath promised thee, in the land that floweth with milk and honey.

Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God is one Lord:

And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thine heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy might.

And these words, which I command thee this day, shall be in thine heart:

And thou shalt teach them diligently unto thy children, and shalt talk of them when thou sittest in thine house, and when thou walkest by the way, and when thou liest down, and when thou risest up.

And thou shalt bind them for a sign upon thine hand, and they shall be as frontlets between thine eyes.

And thou shalt write them upon the posts of thy house, and on thy gates.

And it shall be, when the Lord thy God shall have brought thee into the land which he sware unto thy fathers, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob, to give thee great and goodly cities, which thou buildedst not,

And houses full of all good things, which thou filledst not, and wells digged, which thou diggedst not, vineyards and olive trees, which thou plantedst not; when thou shalt have eaten and be full;

Then beware lest thou forget the Lord, which brought thee forth out of the land of Egypt, from the house of bondage.

Thou shalt fear the Lord thy God, and serve him, and shalt swear by his name.

Ye shall not go after other gods, of the gods of the people which are round about you;

(For the Lord thy God is a jealous God among you) lest the anger of the Lord thy God be kindled against thee, and destroy thee from off the face of the earth.

Ye shall not tempt the Lord your God, as ye tempted him in Massah.

Ye shall diligently keep the commandments of the Lord your God, and his testimonies, and his statutes, which he hath commanded thee.

And thou shalt do that which is right and good in the sight of the Lord: that it may be well with thee, and that thou mayest go in and possess the good land which the Lord sware unto thy fathers.

To cast out all thine enemies from before thee, as the Lord hath spoken.

And when thy son asketh thee in time to come, saying, What mean the testimonies, and the statutes, and the judgments, which the Lord our God hath commanded you?

Then thou shalt say unto thy son, We were Pharaoh’s bondmen in Egypt; and the Lord brought us out of Egypt with a mighty hand:

And the Lord shewed signs and wonders, great and sore, upon Egypt, upon Pharaoh, and upon all his household, before our eyes:

And he brought us out from thence, that he might bring us in, to give us the land which he sware unto our fathers.

And the Lord commanded us to do all these statutes, to fear the Lord our God, for our good always, that he might preserve us alive, as it is at this day.

And it shall be our righteousness, if we observe to do all these commandments before the Lord our God, as he hath commanded us.

Deuteronomy chapter six


Just as Deuteronomy 6 applied to Israel then as it does today, it also applies to us as children of God, lest we forget. May we not let our God or children down (or next generations).

  • We can only spiritually teach, guide, or help direct if we first place ourselves under the authority of God to be guided, directed, taught, and be God-molded. Then through humble obedience are we able to do the walking and talking that is able to help direct, teach, and the guide others in Christ.
  • You can only give what you yourself internally feed on…that includes the spiritual.

Are you walking intimately with your God, daily? Are you putting on Christ, daily? Are you spending time in prayer, daily? Are you serving in your local Bible believing-preaching church? Are your children physically seeing you walk with Jesus, daily? If not, today is the day!

You can not talk the walk and not walk the talk. Our children are smarter than that!

In Christ I am SHE {Saved. Hopeful. Empowered.}